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Da dada dada dada... That's kinda how i'm feeling right now. My mind is mush. I'm feeling good, but not very creative. Tomorrow I have a big day. I'm going to get some stuff done to my car, and then I will do large amounts of math work. My homegroup is tomorrow night. I'm looking forward to that most of all. I need that meeting every week to keep me grounded. You all keep grounded in the passing time. Peace!

Training

Today I started training a new food-runner. It was pretty darn fun. The new runner is one of my friends from way back. She's a cool chick, and catches on really quick. By the end of the night she was running orders out by herself. I think she was having a good time. I was! Other than that, there is nothing new going on. Life is rolling along smoothly. I don't know what to think. It's rolling almost too smooth. I guess I will keep my eyes open for back shit on the tracks.

You know what? I really don't know what to talk about lately at all. Everything is going good with me. I'm working a job I like. I'm sober and happy. Things are not happening. Life is good. I'm okay witht that. In fact, i'm satisfied, more than enough, with everything. I can't complain at all. Tell me how you are feeling.

A New Week

Today is the beginning of a new week. This week can be good or bad. The outcome is my decision. I would like to get some schoolwork done, and hit a couple of meetings. I started it off well. I worked a double at work today. At work, I got a lot done. The second half of the day I dragged a little, because one of my servers hasn't been tipping me out correctly. I got a call after work from my manager telling me it is all handled. Next time I work with the idiot server, i'll bust my ass to show her that I work hard. She already knows that, but feels that I am less than, so I shouldn't get a fair tip. Peace out! Much love...

Sick Again

The last few days i've been really sick. Headaches, cold sweats, and coughing. Today I'm almost back to normal.

On Tuesday I celebrated 2 years of sobriety. June 15th is a date that I thought safe. I'm not really sure when it was. I didn't really care back then. I just stopped one day and decided to get serious. Sometimes I wish that I would have stayed sober after I got out of treatment, but now I know that 4 more months to count isn't a big deal. Well, i'll get back to you later. Have a safe and great night.

My Weekend

Over the weekend I went to a spiritual retreat. I brought a guest along so he can recieve the experience I did last year. When he left he seemed happy with it. I think he took it all to heart. I love the weekend. It is a great time, and I got a lot out of giving it away. God was really there. He, she, or it was watching over us and pulling the strings. I'm looking forward to the next day now.

Quittin'

Today I called up my boss at my painting job and left a message telling him I can't continue to work. I really can't do it. Right now, it's hitting my sobriety. I need to find that balance right now in my life. I think I can handle only the one job at night. I want to be able to get to at 3 or 4 meetings a week. I'm going to look around and see where some good noon meetings are held. I hope that the quitting goes well.

...Wearin' and Tearin'

I really love working. It makes me feel good about myself. I feel less selfish and my self-esteem is growing. The only problem is that it is grinding me down. I can't get to a meeting every night anymore. I'm learing to love those few meetings that I can get to. It's alright though. I'm cool with my God and i'm cool with myself. That's a big part of my thing. Hopefully I fit into this lifestyle. It's completely new to me. It feels good.

Working Again

Today I started my second job. I'm a food-runner at an Indian resturant. I walked in to the place and felt comfortable right off the bat. Today I started to get taught what to do, and i'm just fine at that. The only problem I have is not knowing what the foods are. I started to catch on a little bit, but I need some more time. I feel really good after a long-days work. Two jobs in a day. I now understand how all you grown-ups feel.